Wrestling with God

Jacob’s story: Jacob’s story takes up 25 chapters in Genesis. (It’s a family saga, and it’s also a Biblical soap opera.)

Today’s reading: Jacob is still traveling, and preparing to meet his brother Esau again; even after many years, he‟s still afraid of what Esau may do to him and his family. (Whatever Esau chooses to do, Jacob knows he deserves it.)

Wrestling with fear: Jacob doesn’t sleep, but wrestles all night with the unknown that waits for him in the morning. (But there‟s Someone else there besides his fears – Someone who won‟t let him go.)

Wrestling with God: It turns out Jacob is meeting God again; first it was the dream of a ladder joining heaven and earth; now, it‟s a God who won‟t let him go.

I believe we all wrestle with God, whether we believe in God or not. There is Something – Someone – who calls us, accompanies us on our way through life, Someone who won‟t let us go.

Andy’s story: For many years, our son Andy was haunted by a version of Christianity that pictures God as judgmental and even condemning. After he died, his last journal was sent to us, and we found notes he’d written while listening to a radio sermon about Jacob.

There were pages of notes from this sermon that captivated Andy, but the bottom line was this: Jacob was a “schemer”– and so was Andy – but God loves them anyway, and will never let them go.

In listening to this sermon, Andy had come face to face with the loving God of Jesus.

Finding the Face of God in the Bible

Each of our lessons today reminds us of a time when someone came face to face with God.

• Jacob wrestled with God in the desert, and learned that God was with him every step of the way. (God left his mark on Jacob, a wound he would carry for the rest of his life.)
• Moses wrestled not just with God, but with the people of Israel – Jacob‟s descendants. (God gave Moses the Commandments, and afterwards his face shone with the intensity of the encounter.)
• Jesus wrestled with God‟s call (not just with the devil!) in the desert; and for the rest of his life he followed the direction God had given him. (On the mountain, the disciples came face to face with God‟s presence.)
• Paul never met Jesus in the flesh, but he met him on the road to Damascus. (In a blinding light, Paul came to understood he was moving in the wrong direction.) Later, he would write, For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then we will see face to face. Now I know only in part; then I will know fully, even as I have been fully known. And now faith, hope, and love abide, these three, and the greatest of these is love.” (1 Corinthians 13)

This God of redeeming love is the God Andy finally met at the end of his life – through Jacob‟s story, read in the light of Jesus. Wrestling with Jesus Our culture wrestles with Jesus – or with ideas of Jesus:

Some ask, “Did Jesus really exist?” Others ask, “Was Jesus the Son of God?” and “Must we believe in Jesus to gain eternal life?” Some think Jesus a great teacher (but his lessons were meant for a simpler world).  Some believe Jesus was a window into the nature of God, (the God of love and compassion, not the God of condemnation)?  Others ask, “Does the loving Spirit of Jesus still live in our world?” What do you see when you wrestle with Jesus?